Stepping UP

So.... In the spirit of being a better blogger, I will make sure I share a post with you guys at least twice a month. I need to start finding a way to be as consistent with my posts as can possibly be. Now that I've managed to get myself a new phone (before the one I lost inside a taxi) best believe I will stay true to my word. I honestly pray I get to a point where I'm digging deep into recognizing trends, fashion and style, and attending events that interest me the most in King. My dailly struggle about being in King though is having to live amongst a culture that does not completely represent me. But I will never complian because I know God put me and my family here for a reason. I try to find a balance and to find ways to strongly stay true to my God giving design regardless of my environment. Life down here is a complete opposite to my natural disposition. But you know what? I'd like to think there are alot like me with socially unpopular identitys but there are many shades of black and its time we embrace them all. I am Ndebele!! And I want people to always know that about me. Its who I am aswell as who I identify with as a human being. Do I look as hammered as I really was? All dressed up though!!

Flooding internally with tears of fear

I'll be quite honest. I am one of those people who literally experience nerves when placed in a situation where I could be rejected. I don't know why I feel this way but all I know is that I certainly wasn't raised to feel this way about myself. Struggling with this fear of rejection has had a far reaching impact in the way I lived my life. I now believe each of us are born into genuis. Sadly, most of us die amid mediocrity. I am now grown to fear NOTHING but the Almighty God. I needed a bit of cheering up today, so I opted for Kidd's Beach with Gin and Lemonade of cause :-)