Mlambo Family Slaying?

This colab with Kyle was amazing!! Especially using my big sister Princess Alisinka Mlambo and nephew Prince Uncuthu as our models. Kyle is proving to me by the day how superb he is in his job. Its also nice when you can work with someone you're also dearly close to. I am giving you a bit of who I am by the day. And these are direct members of my family that you should know. They are my pillar of strength, my travel partners - I have nothing but unconditional love. Anyway, scroll down and Happy Decembering! 

You can't take me down.

Out of anger - he felt the need to use twitter as his act to 'canvassing' certain issues he had with me when he could still call me his companion. Drama, I know. Before I could even say much, my account got suspended by cape town gay twitter. So today marks exactly three months since our verbal game of insults and threats to each other on twitter and I can say I'm still bitter about the whole situation and how it was handled by people on twitter. Gay twitter. Immediately, our audience reacted in a way that added even more extreme tension between us - superpowers. Carelessly labelling one another, and him spreading lies and saying the kind of remarks that amped up the audience to pay full attention of the drama, to say the least.

I have since been suspended from twitter for reasons I am still unsure of and my account being suspended is gradually building a lot of anger inside of me by the day. I am so eager for people to hear my side of the story of what really happened because honestly, I want people to know this chap for the person that he really is. His dirty secrets are undeniably too far gone to keep. To top that off, these past few days have been so rainy with such cold winds in the evenings and I've just been indoors in winter pyjammas all curled up beneath my blankets struggling to study. 

When its warm outside and the sun is out, I could be down and out and still manage to wear a fake smile on my face for all you haters. As a matter of fact, any day when Im not having to cover up happens to be a blessing to me. So says the capricorn - summer baby that is me. Ultimately, I strongly believe that God will never take me somewhere I'm not supposed to be and nobody can steal the gifts that HE has given to me. In a clear voice; I say, no more pain, shame or mysery. You wont take me down. You wont break me down. Theres more to me than my mistakes. 

A legend down

Two days after the tragic death of HHP and I can without a doubt say his memory still lives and will live in my life forever. Ever since I heard the news of HHP's passing, I have been contemplating my own lingering & deep sadness and I tried a bit to find ways to understand why this loss has affected me in the way that it has. No response but thr fact that he was in my view HOPE personified. He opened doors for a lot of kidos in the music industry and still managed to remain humble as well as funny. He was infact the hope that our country still desperately needs. He represented with integrity, humility, openness and a genuine sense of self, the kind of South African we all aspire to be. His far-reaching ability across all barriers of music, race, gender, age, etc made HHP an incredibly remarkable human being. His pride in who he was and in where he came from and the courage to live that with passion and conviction makes this loss incredibly sad. May we not lose the lesson. No matter how and why he died how he symbolized hope and "hope deserts us at no point in our existence." Therefore as we lay him at his final resting place, may that reminder serve to inspire us to be the kind of South Africans HHP would laugh and be proud of.

KZN vacay nearing

Sessssh!! Seems like such a long time since I've last blogged hey. I will admit to have completely fallen off schedule regarding my blog posts thou, and that is mainly because I haven't really been feeling myself of lately. I feel so far from ever living my life as my ideal self or even reaching my long term goals in my life. I wont dwell on that thou. Its best I write about much more exciting things about my life, you know. My vacay to Kwazulu Natal is nearing (in about two months from now) and this time around I'm most interested in learning more about umzulu in depth and sort of get to know more about their traditions and how legalistic zulu men are with their culture. I've heard so many people from KZN speak about towns such as New Castle, Kwa Mashu as well as Maritzburg to mention a few; I am really keen on exploring more of these smaller towns and nourished green farmlands of Kwazulu Natal which is the land of the largest ethnic group in our country. I will not be touring the beautiful coastal areas, visiting uShaka Marine World or watching a show at the Moses Mabhida Staduim. The only commercial place I'll be visiting as per their destination attraction is the Botanical Gardens which have indigenous and exotic plant collections. Anyway, I am blogging about this because I just cant wait already! So keen! And thinking about is actually surprisingly exciting already. You'd swear this is a trip to Barbados! The way I am.

Binding heritage month to my spiritual life.

Your soul is not limited to anything thats why its immortal. They say we are not immortal beings but we need to believe that genuinely we are immortal. You need to tell yourself you are the light. The everlasting light. Practise and meditate over this. I remember continuously praying before I laid my head to rest and saying 'Thixo Wam, iThemba lam likuwe' and those simple words added so much value into my life today. I have grown so much spiritually and I always want people to know how exciting it really is to focus on having a healthy spiritual life -  this is where my growth is going to come from - where my power resides; above everything else. I am extremely driven by God's love and forgiveness. I now have principles that I live by which help me avoid ubuqwirhy and life has never been so amazing! Do it and you can thank me later! Life is a lil FUN for me these days and I'm just going to keep the basics right along my way to successful and to my ideal self. Ngilindebele!

I'm chubby not fat

Sometimes all you need in life is a little trip outside of your busy city life- to not only do something fun but also to actually experience and to indulge in more activities that will build positivity and add growth into your life. I really enjoyed modelling this photo shoot with a great phtographer friend of mine Kyle even thou I was completely out of my comfort zone. I was extremely lost in the first hour of the shoot and uncomfortable to say the least. Kyle made me feel relaxed a bit with a few dope shots then I got comfortable with the setting as well as my body. I have found confidence in my upper body and I'm loving it! Also out here to show all you niggas that chubby isn't fat. This is a sexy chubby nigga.

You can follow Kyle on all social media platforms as kylecestari_photography. Click here to be directed to his Instagram page

Night out

Let me tell you. Ubomi bunzima! Growing up and maturing into a young adult has been the hardest thing I've ever had to experience in my life thus far. But you know what? I am learning by the day how to push myself beyond reasonable doubt. Goal setting has been such a powerful process for thinking about my ideal future.

Rooftop lounge with the homegirl. Vip deck for all you niggas!